My Story
For most of my life I felt different, like I didn't quite fit in. Although no one could probably tell, as I looked so very normal. And happy. My parents divorced when I was two and growing up I didn't share that experience with too many, if any, at least not until my teenage years. I lived full time with my mother (my older brother lived with my dad which was a setup quite common in the seventies) but when I was nine years old my mum decided to end her life (as her younger sister had just three years prior) and as a result I lost not only her but also my stepdad. My father was starting a new family which meant us moving across the country (Sweden) and me changing schools twice, having to leave friends, sports and relatives and try to reinvent myself as a well adjusted country girl in the (to me) middle of nowhere at the age of eleven. Luckily my talents lie in acting and singing so adopting a new accent and pretending to love football/soccer was not my biggest challenge at the time. Having gone through so many separations so early in life had created a polarity within me I was going to spend some thirty plus years trying to bridge. I desperately longed for safety, acceptance and belonging. To be loved for who I am, warts and all. But pain had taught me not to trust or need anyone (as they all leave or let me down anyway) so I became very independent and capable. Also, people like happy people so that was what I was. Strong, outgoing, fearless and with a smile on my face. And those traits took me places. I've studied tourism in Spain, english in London, music and theatre in Stockholm and I eventually graduated at the American Academy of Dramatic Arts in New York.
Since my teens I had dreamt of living and studying/working in New York, which I did for a few years, but the entertainment industry proved an uphill climb too steep for my bruised inner child and her low self-worth. All I wanted was to play, to be included, accepted and validated. And so I found myself drawn to what instead felt easy and fun - being in my body - moving, lifting, jumping, playing! As a personal trainer and yoga teacher I got to inspire others to find joy and strength in their bodies and ultimately in themselves. Leading others has always come natural to me and sharing my knowledge in a fun and inspiring way is something I aspire to everyday whether it is as a physical educations teacher working with teenagers or as a coach helping others heal their inner child, find true purpose and create a more meaningful life. I spent fifteen years working as a personal trainer and yoga teacher and they were healing years. Partly as through all of the embodiment work I learnt to love my body. Oh the amount of years I spent fighting and punishing this vessel my soul chose to incarnate into. I wish we'd teach children about our soul choosing to have a human experience and that our body is in fact our home. A place where we are meant to feel safe, loved and fulfilled. And if we take care of ourselves physically, emotionally and spiritually, we are giving ourselves exactly that, a safe and joyful seat of our soul. I digress... Not until my midthirties did I finally have the maturity and stability in life to start healing my childhood traumas through various modalities. I spent two years in talk therapy/psychoanalysis with the most amazing psychotherapist. As I was processing and healing the loss of my mother my therapist unfortunately lost her battle with cancer. As did my grandmother, my aunt (stand-in mum) and my best friend. Forced to go through the experience of having all my closest women past away prematurely I was beginning to feel convinced of a deeper meaning to my life...
The arrival of my daughter also adding to this knowing as I during giving birth left my body to watch it all from above. It felt as if I was opening the door to the other side to welcome her here. And through revelations unbeknownst to her I know she was with my mother before incarnating as my daughter. My first thoughts of 'another side' naturally began as my mum died. Not because it would be the hope or questioning of any child losing their parent, but because my mother was visiting me in my dreams. Looking back I'm so happy she did but my nine year old self got so scared I couldn't sleep and so I had to ask her to stop. Since then I have had too many experiences to list with relatives, guides and souls from 'the other side' making it clear they are always with me. Souls might leave their body but they never leave us. This was something I instinctively knew to be true but society and my upbringing had me question. Which is why I am so grateful for all the unexplainable experiences I had. It is now forty years and counting, numerous courses and trainings and an endless amount of books since those nights when my mother came to check on me in my dreams. Today I am an ICF certified spiritual life coach and Akashic Records reader and I feel both humbled and happy that all of my struggles led to where I am now. I guess it's impossible to distinguish a predominate part to my healing but I do know the more time I spent in hypnosis therapy, with my inner child, the clearer my channelling and intuition became. Being mindful about what I consume (body AND mind), taking care of my instrument through working out, breathwork and spending time in nature are all important parts to my continued healing and wellbeing. It brings so much joy to have found my purpose and to live in alignment with my Highest self, an experience I feel honoured helping others to and through as well. Healing IS possible, and it is for everyone. As is communicating with our soul and our spirit guides.
Thank you for being here!
To your right is a list of people, courses, pod-casts and books that all have played, some still do, an important part in my homecoming. Enjoy!
Love,
Charlotte
Sources of impact
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A Line Podcast / A Line Within
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Expanded podcast / To Be Magnetic
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Highest Self Institute
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Over the Influence
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Dr Joe Dispenza
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Lee Harris
Books
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A Return to Love
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Conversations with God
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The Magdalene Manuscript
... to name a few!